I dont know if it ever happens to you, but it happens to me quite often. You download a new album or just turn "shuffle" on on your iTunes and a new song is playing. But it still feels familiar. Like you would write the lyrics. And then you get it...its because the author felt similar/the same as you in that time when he was writting it. These songs are changing depending on your mood, on your recent life. Sometimes there are bunch of them, sometimes its hard to find one. This is one of the songs which talk for me (at least partly/with the podtext) for the last two months. Its Aftertaste by Ben Lee and you can know it from the One Tree Hill sountrack. Ill add the song when I know how:)
And its none of my business,
I got a weakness
Can I beat this?
The autumn leaves
Are falling in the breeze
It's not my fault
There's a storm over yonder
You gotta wonder
What its all about
Destiny was never up to me
And its not my fault,
Your loves like salt
The aftertaste is gonna break my heart
Feels like its over before it starts
The aftertaste is gonna break my heart
And I really didnt need this
Dont wanna be this
Dont wanna see this
Im fallin in,
Im going there again
And its not my fault
Are you sick of pretending?
That all this trouble is really endin
The way things break
Every step you take
Is not my fault
Your loves like salt
The aftertaste is gonna break my heart
Feels like its over before it starts
The aftertaste is gonna break my heart
August 6, 2008
August 1, 2008
Character going along with christianity
For the last few days...or weeks Ive been little thinking of how some characteristics can go along with christianity.
Let me be honest with you.
In the beggining of this summer I had a little advanture traveling from Croatia to the Czech republic. I made it through some exciting places and the whole trip took me about three days. And you know what? Even though my parents were afraid of me and my friends call me crazy I felt so great during these days! Ok, not really while waiting for the train for 4 hours in the ugliest place ever or sleeping very "comfortably" in front of the trains station, but still. Every time I got on a bus/train/walk somewhere else I just couldnt avoid the big smile on my face. I was so happy being on the road. Getting to know new places, meeting new people.
A little different story is about a guy Ive read a book about. But it fits to what I want to say. So, Roald Dahl in his book Swith Bitch (great book by the way) writes about a guy called "uncle Oswald". Oswald is this kind of a guy who is always on the road, every day with a different woman. He never was with a woman twice. Never. Saying he cant stay on one place for too long. His approach to life made me thinking about this whole thing.
What if I am that kind of a guy like Oswald? Even now, in my 19 ages (and experiencing this for already two three years) I feel the urge to get out of my town where I live for at least one month a year. I just need to. I wouldnt be happy there anymore until Id leave. This year I was gone only for 20 days or so and it wasnt enough. Now Im stuck here, working and meeting all the same people (even though i LOVE them truly) and I feel like in a cage.
The other thing is about relationships. Ive never really had a boyfriend (I mean a real one, haha, these two can be barely marked as bfs) so I dont really know, but what if I wont be able to be faithful? Maybe once I truly love someone it will be way more easier than it seems now. But anyway, I think that in every relationship (including friendships) once you get to the point when you have nothing to say to each other and you need a little break, to get to know new people, to experience something new and then it works out again. (this is probably why I need my away-month). Maybe this makes no sence to you. It makes perfect sence to me. Its just the way I am.
So how people with uncle Oswalds character can be christians? Can they? How? What to do if I feel like uncle Oswald?
Maybe I just need a man who will understand all of this and then everything will be fine. And one who likes to travel. That would be amazing.
Any ideas? If it really doesnt make sence to you Im sorry...But its not my fault;)
freedom
Let me be honest with you.
In the beggining of this summer I had a little advanture traveling from Croatia to the Czech republic. I made it through some exciting places and the whole trip took me about three days. And you know what? Even though my parents were afraid of me and my friends call me crazy I felt so great during these days! Ok, not really while waiting for the train for 4 hours in the ugliest place ever or sleeping very "comfortably" in front of the trains station, but still. Every time I got on a bus/train/walk somewhere else I just couldnt avoid the big smile on my face. I was so happy being on the road. Getting to know new places, meeting new people.
A little different story is about a guy Ive read a book about. But it fits to what I want to say. So, Roald Dahl in his book Swith Bitch (great book by the way) writes about a guy called "uncle Oswald". Oswald is this kind of a guy who is always on the road, every day with a different woman. He never was with a woman twice. Never. Saying he cant stay on one place for too long. His approach to life made me thinking about this whole thing.
What if I am that kind of a guy like Oswald? Even now, in my 19 ages (and experiencing this for already two three years) I feel the urge to get out of my town where I live for at least one month a year. I just need to. I wouldnt be happy there anymore until Id leave. This year I was gone only for 20 days or so and it wasnt enough. Now Im stuck here, working and meeting all the same people (even though i LOVE them truly) and I feel like in a cage.
The other thing is about relationships. Ive never really had a boyfriend (I mean a real one, haha, these two can be barely marked as bfs) so I dont really know, but what if I wont be able to be faithful? Maybe once I truly love someone it will be way more easier than it seems now. But anyway, I think that in every relationship (including friendships) once you get to the point when you have nothing to say to each other and you need a little break, to get to know new people, to experience something new and then it works out again. (this is probably why I need my away-month). Maybe this makes no sence to you. It makes perfect sence to me. Its just the way I am.
So how people with uncle Oswalds character can be christians? Can they? How? What to do if I feel like uncle Oswald?
Maybe I just need a man who will understand all of this and then everything will be fine. And one who likes to travel. That would be amazing.
Any ideas? If it really doesnt make sence to you Im sorry...But its not my fault;)
July 25, 2008
Back again, baby!
Wow, its been a long time since the last post! I always had something to write about but didnt have time or was just lazy. Sorry.
So, at first, let me tell you one story. Listen...or rather read carefuly, its like a movie story, haha.
In July 2007 one girl was on the AIM as ussual. But something weird had happened! There was somebody new on her buddy list! She had only her wel known friends on that kind of a messanger, so her first thought was "Who the heck is this stranger?". To find it out, she decided to write a message to this random guy. After a few sentences she found out his name, Neil, where is he from, Minnesota and that none of them have an idea how he could appear on her list. But who cares, right? So they kept talking and what not! He knew some of her friends and even went to the Czech republic for doing English camps! How sweet that was?
Another randomness wasnt waiting for too long. Next random step was when they wrote to each others wall at the same time. Absolutely randomly.
The randomness was taken to another level.
Neil was even like 6 miles from her house...but in that time, the girl was abroad. Such a bummer! So he did what? He burried a treasure for her. That was kind of sweet.
And btw.she and her friend had SO much fun finding it.
She was flying to Prague, when she was comming back to the Czech republic. And he was at the same time in Prague too...so she went to the hotel he was staying at. Unfortunatelly, he wasnt there...so she called there the next morning (such a sacrifice! She just hates calling to unknown places!) but didnt catch him again...So, it didnt work out in 2007. Even though they met at least through the telephone, when he called her.
Now its 2008. And they finally met. How? Randomly. One night he was just "hey, Im in the Czech, come!" and after few minutes of finding other options she was like "Ok, see ya in 15, 20 minutes!"...
...how cool this story is??...
...I know it, youre just jealous and wish you could experience something like that!
:)
So, at first, let me tell you one story. Listen...or rather read carefuly, its like a movie story, haha.
In July 2007 one girl was on the AIM as ussual. But something weird had happened! There was somebody new on her buddy list! She had only her wel known friends on that kind of a messanger, so her first thought was "Who the heck is this stranger?". To find it out, she decided to write a message to this random guy. After a few sentences she found out his name, Neil, where is he from, Minnesota and that none of them have an idea how he could appear on her list. But who cares, right? So they kept talking and what not! He knew some of her friends and even went to the Czech republic for doing English camps! How sweet that was?
Another randomness wasnt waiting for too long. Next random step was when they wrote to each others wall at the same time. Absolutely randomly.
The randomness was taken to another level.
Neil was even like 6 miles from her house...but in that time, the girl was abroad. Such a bummer! So he did what? He burried a treasure for her. That was kind of sweet.
And btw.she and her friend had SO much fun finding it.
She was flying to Prague, when she was comming back to the Czech republic. And he was at the same time in Prague too...so she went to the hotel he was staying at. Unfortunatelly, he wasnt there...so she called there the next morning (such a sacrifice! She just hates calling to unknown places!) but didnt catch him again...So, it didnt work out in 2007. Even though they met at least through the telephone, when he called her.
Now its 2008. And they finally met. How? Randomly. One night he was just "hey, Im in the Czech, come!" and after few minutes of finding other options she was like "Ok, see ya in 15, 20 minutes!"...
...how cool this story is??...
...I know it, youre just jealous and wish you could experience something like that!
:)
June 3, 2008
It is done...
Oh my praying friends...that whole thing ended up...the best way it could.
thank you so much for your prayers.
I really didnt have a lucky hand and my questions did really suck, it was ridiculous that I almost started crying in english, because it was a question called "history of great britain" and i seen it once in my life-that day. the only question i was happy for was in biology.
but anyway, the teachers probably really love me.
so this is my final resault: (1 means A)
czech - 1
english - 1
geography - 1
biology - 1
thank you again!! God is great!
And yes...I got accepted for the college I wanted to go to!! So Im moving to Brno at the end of summer...coolness...and weirdness...and fear...
And yes, it feels really weird ending up one period with the feeling that life will never be the same...and you feel old after graduation. Blah. But its kinda fun now.
And yes, I did what I shouldnt have done...lifes surprising...I am surprising to myself. Im a bad girl, thats just true...
And yes, Im leaving for the whole summer.
Bye
thank you so much for your prayers.
I really didnt have a lucky hand and my questions did really suck, it was ridiculous that I almost started crying in english, because it was a question called "history of great britain" and i seen it once in my life-that day. the only question i was happy for was in biology.
but anyway, the teachers probably really love me.
so this is my final resault: (1 means A)
czech - 1
english - 1
geography - 1
biology - 1
thank you again!! God is great!
And yes...I got accepted for the college I wanted to go to!! So Im moving to Brno at the end of summer...coolness...and weirdness...and fear...
And yes, it feels really weird ending up one period with the feeling that life will never be the same...and you feel old after graduation. Blah. But its kinda fun now.
And yes, I did what I shouldnt have done...lifes surprising...I am surprising to myself. Im a bad girl, thats just true...
And yes, Im leaving for the whole summer.
Bye
May 3, 2008
April 22, 2008
A quick song
And as I said in the post below I've been little active in cultural life...active means I wasn't only listening, but also creating:
Rise your hands to the sky so you can feel the Gods presence, feel the Gods presence
Lift your voice, sing and cry so you can feel the Gods presence, feel the Gods presence
Oh Lord, your love has captured me
Oh Lord, its tough (to) live without Thee
Oh God, you gave me all I need
Oh God, please take over lead
of my life
Bow your heart for Lord of mine so you can praise our God and our King, praise our God and our King
Close your eyes, its worship time so you can praise our God and our King, praise our God and our King
re.
Rise your hands to the sky so you can feel the Gods presence, feel the Gods presence
Lift your voice, sing and cry so you can feel the Gods presence, feel the Gods presence
Oh Lord, your love has captured me
Oh Lord, its tough (to) live without Thee
Oh God, you gave me all I need
Oh God, please take over lead
of my life
Bow your heart for Lord of mine so you can praise our God and our King, praise our God and our King
Close your eyes, its worship time so you can praise our God and our King, praise our God and our King
re.
Tia's recommendations
If your question is 'who the heck is Tia?' the answer is me. The Stuttgart americans couldnt pronounce my name, so they strated to call me Tia. Sounds good, doesn't it?
I've been little active in the cultural life recently (well, as ussual, but who cares), so I decided to give you some recommendations so you can feel the same joy as me.
music:
Colbie Caillat (I'm sure you know the song Bubbly, but there are some other beautiful ones on the cd)
Eddie Vedder (Into the Wild OST to be exact)
Erin McKeown
Everclear
Under The Influence Of Giants
Grant Lee Phillips
Ryan Adams (His stzle is ussualy country, but check out the song 'New York, New York', it's amazing)
James Morrison (yes, Jim is also good, but not as new:P)
and when you're bored while looking at the screen, check out these myspace wonders:
Brendan James
Tyrone Wells
Jason Reeves
Jackson Waters
books:
The Last Convertible/Anton Mayrer
Into The Wild/Jon Krakauer
On The Road/Jack Kerouac
Any poems/Laurence Ferlinghetti
movies:
Into The Wild
Becoming Jane
21 Grams
Babel
The Motorcycle Diaries
I've been little active in the cultural life recently (well, as ussual, but who cares), so I decided to give you some recommendations so you can feel the same joy as me.
music:
Colbie Caillat (I'm sure you know the song Bubbly, but there are some other beautiful ones on the cd)
Eddie Vedder (Into the Wild OST to be exact)
Erin McKeown
Everclear
Under The Influence Of Giants
Grant Lee Phillips
Ryan Adams (His stzle is ussualy country, but check out the song 'New York, New York', it's amazing)
James Morrison (yes, Jim is also good, but not as new:P)
and when you're bored while looking at the screen, check out these myspace wonders:
Brendan James
Tyrone Wells
Jason Reeves
Jackson Waters
books:
The Last Convertible/Anton Mayrer
Into The Wild/Jon Krakauer
On The Road/Jack Kerouac
Any poems/Laurence Ferlinghetti
movies:
Into The Wild
Becoming Jane
21 Grams
Babel
The Motorcycle Diaries
April 20, 2008
Christian x Believer
As you might know I was in the city of Opava last week. Me and 20 more czechs were the middlemen between czechs and americans there. But I dont want to talk about this (at least not now). Some of these americans opened my eyes to something I knew that exists, but not so radical.
I always knew that there are people who are christians-people who try to live their lives for God. They all sure are sinners, no doubt with that. But they are at least trying.
Then, there are people who I call "belivers". People who belive in God, but live their lives the same as they used to live it before they knew God. Passive christians in other words.
All this is ok, cause all these people are not trying to look different that they are.
But then there is this group of people who call themselves christians, but their lives are not lived by the Word at all. I might call it a little pharisaic. As I know they were as well trying to look so religious but they lives sucked. So these people are sinners as any others, but the difference is that these people dont really regret any of what theyve done. And there are some things that Im able to forget (Im not the one to judge) but some things I cant go over.
There is one guy who does bad things, but I like him, cause hes not self-proclaimed christian. And then there is this guy, who seemed pretty cool to me, he was talking about God really nicely and so on and then I found out that his life is full of unregretted sin like one night stand (one of the things I cant go over).
Thats just my thought of this week. You might not agree with me...I kinda dont care:)
I always knew that there are people who are christians-people who try to live their lives for God. They all sure are sinners, no doubt with that. But they are at least trying.
Then, there are people who I call "belivers". People who belive in God, but live their lives the same as they used to live it before they knew God. Passive christians in other words.
All this is ok, cause all these people are not trying to look different that they are.
But then there is this group of people who call themselves christians, but their lives are not lived by the Word at all. I might call it a little pharisaic. As I know they were as well trying to look so religious but they lives sucked. So these people are sinners as any others, but the difference is that these people dont really regret any of what theyve done. And there are some things that Im able to forget (Im not the one to judge) but some things I cant go over.
There is one guy who does bad things, but I like him, cause hes not self-proclaimed christian. And then there is this guy, who seemed pretty cool to me, he was talking about God really nicely and so on and then I found out that his life is full of unregretted sin like one night stand (one of the things I cant go over).
Thats just my thought of this week. You might not agree with me...I kinda dont care:)
March 23, 2008
Not everything is like it seems
Ive been thinking recently about how easy is to judge without knowing the details. Im sure we all do it even though we dont want to. Let me show you what I mean on an example. Its little shallow, but good for the explanation.
With the beginning of the school year all school towels had disappeared and the automatic blowers were installed instead of them. The fact is that the blowers work really bad. Everyone, including me, were like 'the guiding is so stupid, dont they know its not working? We want our towels back!'
I had a little talk with the vice-principal last week and he told me, that theres this new bill by the ministry of health saying that towels are not hygienic. And the great gadget with the paper towels would be too expensive, cause younger students would waste them for sure. So there was only one option left-blowers.
Its so easy to complain when we dont know.
Theres another example with relationships, but its too personal:) But the main thing was that even though one person is going to do something what hurts me for the whole summer, its not her fault and the first thing when they told her about it was carrying about my feelings. Thats very nice. It still hurts, but it so great to know that people care about you and what you feel even if you have no idea that they do.
P.S.: Im writing this on MacBook and Im really enjoying it, haha:)
With the beginning of the school year all school towels had disappeared and the automatic blowers were installed instead of them. The fact is that the blowers work really bad. Everyone, including me, were like 'the guiding is so stupid, dont they know its not working? We want our towels back!'
I had a little talk with the vice-principal last week and he told me, that theres this new bill by the ministry of health saying that towels are not hygienic. And the great gadget with the paper towels would be too expensive, cause younger students would waste them for sure. So there was only one option left-blowers.
Its so easy to complain when we dont know.
Theres another example with relationships, but its too personal:) But the main thing was that even though one person is going to do something what hurts me for the whole summer, its not her fault and the first thing when they told her about it was carrying about my feelings. Thats very nice. It still hurts, but it so great to know that people care about you and what you feel even if you have no idea that they do.
P.S.: Im writing this on MacBook and Im really enjoying it, haha:)
March 2, 2008
College decisions
All applications to czech bachelors programs had to be given by February 29th. At the end I decided for four directions.
1. Political and culture geography in Ostrava city
2. Geography and biology with the focus on tutoring in Brno city
3. Law in Brno city
4. Physical training and sport - management of tourist trade (combinated studying)in Brno city
Im still thinking of if I should have applicated to something different, but its pointless. So Im telling myself, that I can try something else someday in future (I want to definitely study spanish and maybe english would be fine). Now, you can pray for the acceptations if you want to. Ill do practical exam by P.E. one day on April 22th-24th, then Ill do some tests on May 11th and scholarly tests of geography and biology on May 17th. So keep youre fingers crossed! My priority is the second thing.
Id be glad if you shared your opinions on what kind of a teacher I would be:)
1. Political and culture geography in Ostrava city
2. Geography and biology with the focus on tutoring in Brno city
3. Law in Brno city
4. Physical training and sport - management of tourist trade (combinated studying)in Brno city
Im still thinking of if I should have applicated to something different, but its pointless. So Im telling myself, that I can try something else someday in future (I want to definitely study spanish and maybe english would be fine). Now, you can pray for the acceptations if you want to. Ill do practical exam by P.E. one day on April 22th-24th, then Ill do some tests on May 11th and scholarly tests of geography and biology on May 17th. So keep youre fingers crossed! My priority is the second thing.
Id be glad if you shared your opinions on what kind of a teacher I would be:)
The secret of the handbag
Today I decided to make tidiness in all of my handbags. I have quite a lot of them, cause, as my mom said, Im a little handbag freak. So I got all stuff out of all handbags and I want to share what I found. Im not a very tidy person if its not about kitchen.
Heres what I found:
13 pens and 1 pencil
481 crowns
2 calculators
3 buttons
2 pills
4 packs of paper tisues
9 pieces of what Im ashamed to say out loud:P
3 books
24 AA batteries
6 euros and 50 cents and 50 slovak halir
3 gloves (Im not a freak, there was one pair and one)
1 candle
1 pocket mirror
1 teaspoon
1 toothpaste shut-off (and usually one toothpaste)
a pack of band-aid
a pair of scissors
...well, at least I wouldnt bleed to death if I cut myself, Ill be ok if I had a headache, Id have what to read (and could even choose) if I was waiting in a long line, wouldnt die of starving in Slovakia or every EU country (Except GB and Sweden I think), simply I would face bunch of absurd situations and survive.
Heres what I found:
13 pens and 1 pencil
481 crowns
2 calculators
3 buttons
2 pills
4 packs of paper tisues
9 pieces of what Im ashamed to say out loud:P
3 books
24 AA batteries
6 euros and 50 cents and 50 slovak halir
3 gloves (Im not a freak, there was one pair and one)
1 candle
1 pocket mirror
1 teaspoon
1 toothpaste shut-off (and usually one toothpaste)
a pack of band-aid
a pair of scissors
...well, at least I wouldnt bleed to death if I cut myself, Ill be ok if I had a headache, Id have what to read (and could even choose) if I was waiting in a long line, wouldnt die of starving in Slovakia or every EU country (Except GB and Sweden I think), simply I would face bunch of absurd situations and survive.
January 27, 2008
The notification
Ive been really busy with school recently. The last year at czech high school is really hard. Because of this I unfortunatelly dont have much time for church and youth group activities. Today, I decided to procrastinate studying and go to church after a few weeks. And once I got there, I felt like I was so much missing! I noticed how important church is. Being with other christians is a great way how to be also with God.
Me and Marketa are also planning to start our small group, what would be awesome, because Im missing something like this.
Thats the thought of today, christian community is very important and encouriging.
Btw. our grades for first semeter are closed and it seems like I will have the best "vysvedceni" in last seven years. Sweet, Im little proud of myself, cause I pushed up my average from math from 4,1 to 2,5 in a week, so I wont get D but B.
Thats me being cute and innocent:
Me and Marketa are also planning to start our small group, what would be awesome, because Im missing something like this.
Thats the thought of today, christian community is very important and encouriging.
Btw. our grades for first semeter are closed and it seems like I will have the best "vysvedceni" in last seven years. Sweet, Im little proud of myself, cause I pushed up my average from math from 4,1 to 2,5 in a week, so I wont get D but B.
Thats me being cute and innocent:
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