yesterday = a catastrophe
today = pretty cool day

tommorow = who knows?

So yeah, yesterday was one of the worst days in my recent life. I was supposed to go to Ireland for summer and I was so excited! But my dad forgot to pay the tickets, and I cannot find any other cheap tickets. Please pray that I can find one. But we had a meeting about our english camp yesterday and it was pretty much fun. I got back into my young age (haha, Im 18 now) and me and Klara did a really cool fight, haha, my knee still hurts:P

And about today...me and my school went to Cesky Tesin to play our drama there and when we were walking down the street to get to pizza place for a lunch, I met Nate Hughes, who cares about intern stuff. So we talked a little bit and he was telling me about how the amazing race is and so on. I asked him when the interns will come and he was like who do I care about, so I was like about Ryan Schultz. And then he was like "Well, hes in my apartment right now, which is right there." Haha, it was so funny. So I went to the pizza place and have a lunch with my dramamates and then asked the teacher about me going to Nates aparment and then leave with them to Malenovice. And he let me go! I still cant belive it! So I went there, and then we drove to Malenovice, it was really good and unexpected! And in Malenovice I met Steph, what was sweet as well. Ryan introduced me to his friend, Paige Crawford, who is serving with JV in Slovakia. She is amazing! I dont know if you have experienced, but she is right that kind of a guy, who you "have to" trust from the first moment. I felt like I have known her for a quite long time. Awesome.

Quote of today: "Biosolarium? Does it mean that bunch of lightning-bugs will shine on you or what?" my classmate about biosolarium

And what also kinda cracked me up was when i was writting a text message to my dentist that I will delay and her answer.
me: "Hey auntie, I will be late about 25 minutes cause the train had delayed"
the dentist: "Chill out"

Thats it for now I guess:P

I wrote this to make you think that Im intelligent:P j/k

We can read in almost every psychological book about human temperaments. Im sure you already have heard about it. There are four of them: melancholic, sanguinic, stoic and choleric. And we also know, that we are born with one specific farrago of these temperaments which affects your character. The next fact is that we cannot change this farrago as well as we cannot change our characters. We can influence it to a certain extent, but cant change all of it. These are the facts.

But is that really true? Probably...it should be if every book says it. But I can say from my own experience, that people are changing. Some of them. Some people are the same all they life, some are not. I know some people who will never change. They dont have to be bad, not at all, they can be funny, crazy and things like that and never change. They will stay funny, crazy and things like that for their whole life. And then there are some people, who are changing, slowly, but constantly. I am this kind of person. Sometimes I just look back in my life and see how much I have changed. Two years ago if you told me that im crazy, i would take it as the biggest compliment you could ever gave me. But now, Im like sick of everyones saying this about me. I know I can do some crazy stuff sometimes, but I also figured, that being more serious and culm is a big asset. And in addition I found out that I really DONT have to be in the center of entertainment all the time. Just sitting and listening is so cool!! So thats nice people say Im funny, but I think my bigger feature is like ability of listening to problems of my friends, cheering up or trying to help as much as I can.

So why I have been changing and some people have not? Weird world, isnt it. But I think I just found out the answer! I belive, that everything is about God. He is the answer for every question (you know what I mean. Surely not "Hows the weather today?" "God":P) and I belive, that if I spend some time with Him, he is the one who is changing me. He is making me acting the way He wants me to act. And if this is what God wants for me, itll be my pleasure to do it! I very belive, that what He wants for me is the best. Thats it.

Change is life

Thats my brothers todays motto:)
So we decided to do something with his pretty long hair...so I cut it and this is the result:

I cant even belive it, I can see his forehead after like two years, haha!:D

Its such a perfect day...lalala

I think that everybody heard this song. And this exact song was playing while I was sitting in the dentists armchair. And Im not sure if this was the right song for my day of today.

I can say that today was one of those special days, when time at school is even better then after it. At school everything went quite well, even my biology teacher was proud of me:)

But then I was suppose to go to Ostrava city to visit my aunt/dentist. I was there last thursday already, when she did a bi hole in my tooth and cleaned the channels (it was a little bit strange case, but whatever, I always was kinda different:D). So I thought Ill go there and she will just fill the hole. All I can say is that I was completely wrong!

She continued cleaning the channels and then she needed to find out the end of the tooth, so she had to go with that stick for cleaning behind the tooth (which was dead) when my nervs still work. So it was kinda painfull. Hm, as Im thinking about it, it wasnt KINDA painfull, it WAS painfull. Then she took some "photos" of the tooth with the sticks in it and then wanted to fill it with something. But the dentinst jabed a thingy in the tooth by mistake, so much more pain by that time. Then she finally filled it, so I was packing and about to leave when the "sister" said "So June 8th?". I was like "Me?". Yeah! So I dont know what aunt will do with the thing that the hole is filled with, but she needs to fill it with something different. Thats definitely not good! She told me that it shouldnt pain as much as today, but who knows...Btw. my teeth still hurt now!

So on this next monday Im going there again....keep your fingers crossed, please!!!

To make your and even my mood better I post one cute thing:)

Our pastor

Loving pastor with a softball bat...our preacher, Ken Pitcher, took while playing softball.

I fell free again

I can feel the freedom now. Finally!
I should give you some explanation I guess. So here it is:
Its kind of a long story but Im sure I can make it much shorter:) There is a guy, lets call him Percy. Percy and I have been friends for almost three years and we were really good friends for a few months. Till I started to like him, then the friendship wasnt as strong and we barely said Hi to each other. A year and a half passed and we started to talk a little bit more again and after maybe four months we became good friends again. It was fun, but I fell in love again. This time it was different though, cause I think it was partly an autosuggestion. I dont know if you ever have experienced it, but if you have some friends who are asking you constantly about a person and making fun of it and such things, you while talking with them are starting to think about the person really their way. If this makes sence to you. Anyway, I started kinda like him, but it was hard, cause he was talking to me once and not really another time. So our friendship was like on a swing. Up and down, up and down...Then we had a real good conversation the other day, and the following days were good as well. That was the top though, so now its down again. But you know what? I dont care anymore. I spent lots of time asking God for help. I asked him to show me His will in this issue. And now Im deffinitely sure that Percy is not the right guy for me. I was trying to convince myself about this for so many times, but now it finally works. Yeah, God helped me realize that we would never make a good match. Cause a relationship without talking and where just one is active simply cannot work out. Breathing is awesome.

I would like to share one lyrics by Rascall Flats with you, cause it reminds me a little bit me right now, considering we never were a couple:

I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don't know why I'm not falling apart
Like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you's not killing me
I feel bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad

I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page
I feel Bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad

That I don't feel bitter, alone
I just feel its time, its time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on and on

Blogging in english? Lets try!

Hey. I finally decided to crate a blog also in english (I already have one in czech) for my english friends. Oh yeah, Im so nice. Haha, just kidding. So, I think thats all I want to say right now. Im tired and Im on the net instead of studying, ups. Ill try write more in one of following days. Thanks for you attention.