Let me be honest with you.
In the beggining of this summer I had a little advanture traveling from Croatia to the Czech republic. I made it through some exciting places and the whole trip took me about three days. And you know what? Even though my parents were afraid of me and my friends call me crazy I felt so great during these days! Ok, not really while waiting for the train for 4 hours in the ugliest place ever or sleeping very "comfortably" in front of the trains station, but still. Every time I got on a bus/train/walk somewhere else I just couldnt avoid the big smile on my face. I was so happy being on the road. Getting to know new places, meeting new people.
A little different story is about a guy Ive read a book about. But it fits to what I want to say. So, Roald Dahl in his book Swith Bitch (great book by the way) writes about a guy called "uncle Oswald". Oswald is this kind of a guy who is always on the road, every day with a different woman. He never was with a woman twice. Never. Saying he cant stay on one place for too long. His approach to life made me thinking about this whole thing.
What if I am that kind of a guy like Oswald? Even now, in my 19 ages (and experiencing this for already two three years) I feel the urge to get out of my town where I live for at least one month a year. I just need to. I wouldnt be happy there anymore until Id leave. This year I was gone only for 20 days or so and it wasnt enough. Now Im stuck here, working and meeting all the same people (even though i LOVE them truly) and I feel like in a cage.
The other thing is about relationships. Ive never really had a boyfriend (I mean a real one, haha, these two can be barely marked as bfs) so I dont really know, but what if I wont be able to be faithful? Maybe once I truly love someone it will be way more easier than it seems now. But anyway, I think that in every relationship (including friendships) once you get to the point when you have nothing to say to each other and you need a little break, to get to know new people, to experience something new and then it works out again. (this is probably why I need my away-month). Maybe this makes no sence to you. It makes perfect sence to me. Its just the way I am.
So how people with uncle Oswalds character can be christians? Can they? How? What to do if I feel like uncle Oswald?
Maybe I just need a man who will understand all of this and then everything will be fine. And one who likes to travel. That would be amazing.
Any ideas? If it really doesnt make sence to you Im sorry...But its not my fault;)
3 comments:
napisu ti to cesky, protoze anglicky bych ze sebe udelala blbce :)
nevim, nakolik jsi me znala ci neznala, co jsi vedela o mych vztazich a co bylo domysleno. od svych sestnacti vedu "vztahy" (se vsim vsudy a nepovazuju to za spatne, ac jsem "verici", ale to je na jinou diskuzi). od 16 do 19 jsem mela dva takoveto vztahy, nic vic. jeden trval rok, druhy dva roky. a vzdycky jsem mela problem s tim, ze jsem podvedome vedela, ze jednou prijde den, kdy uz to nepujde, kdy se ten vztah vycerpa. a opravdu se to stalo. ted je mi 20, jsem ve tretim vztahu. a nevim, co se zmenilo, jestli jsem uz vyrostla a dospela, nebo jestli to je "the one", ale vim, ze tohle bude zabava i za 50 let => bude to mit smysl i za 50 let.
preju ti, abys k tomu jednou dosla taky, myslim, ze v tom budes spokojena.
diky za comment! v podstate tim snad potvrzujes to, v co doufam. jednou jsem cetla takovy citatek ve kterém stalo "one day someone will come to your life and realize why it never worked out with anyone else"...asi to vazne plati:)
wow! i love what you wrote, i feel the same in a sence, its very hard to be still, but where does it end and where does it lead to? i feel like its so important for me to take time every once in a while and see where i am and where i want to be.
when i look back at the last few years i think about the fact that the trend is that life seems to go slower and is more enjoyable when i am moving and doing new things. the less routine i have the better things are.
All in all i think Uncle Oswalds has some good but he's got issues, haha. i mean for someone to have someone new every so often would put a lot of emotional stress on a person, or they would become apathetic and care for nothing because its easier to feel nothing.
i have the same basic story with the females, nothing serious but for different reasons. at first i was too timid and then i hit the breaks and looked at the grand scheme of things and realized i didnt know what i was doing.
i'm stoked for our adventures.
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